Life Without Joel .Com http://triaspis.com/b2evolution/blog6.php This is life after my son, Joel Anthony Thorn, was killed. en-US http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss 60 Life Without Joel http://triaspis.com/b2evolution/blog6.php/life-without-joel-1 Fri, 16 Oct 2009 13:09:12 +0000 Michael Thorn Uncategorized 31@http://triaspis.com/b2evolution/ Today is day 154 without Joel. Friday, October 16, 2009. I have thought about this project off and on for the past few months. I have struggled with emotional breakdowns and black depression since May 15, the day Joel died, and have decided to write my t&hellip;<div class="item_footer"><p><small><a href="http://triaspis.com/b2evolution/blog6.php/life-without-joel-1">Original post</a> blogged on <a href="http://b2evolution.net/">b2evolution</a>.</small></p></div>

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]]> http://triaspis.com/b2evolution/blog6.php/life-without-joel-1#comments http://triaspis.com/b2evolution/blog6.php?tempskin=_rss2&disp=comments&p=31 Thursdays and Fridays http://triaspis.com/b2evolution/blog6.php/thursdays-and-fridays Fri, 16 Oct 2009 14:38:06 +0000 Michael Thorn Uncategorized 32@http://triaspis.com/b2evolution/ Thursdays and Fridays are the worse days for me. Although I am not as manic about it in the last few weeks, in the beginning all I could do was watch the clock and try to imagine where Joel was on May 14 and 15. I tried and tried to map a time line of hi&hellip;<div class="item_footer"><p><small><a href="http://triaspis.com/b2evolution/blog6.php/thursdays-and-fridays">Original post</a> blogged on <a href="http://b2evolution.net/">b2evolution</a>.</small></p></div>

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]]> http://triaspis.com/b2evolution/blog6.php/thursdays-and-fridays#comments http://triaspis.com/b2evolution/blog6.php?tempskin=_rss2&disp=comments&p=32 The First Days Without Joel http://triaspis.com/b2evolution/blog6.php/the-first-days-without-joel Wed, 21 Oct 2009 10:47:18 +0000 Michael Thorn Uncategorized 35@http://triaspis.com/b2evolution/ Friday, May 15, was the worst day of my life. I have felt pain and sorrow throughout my life. Pain over lost girlfriends, pets that have died. We all have. But nothing comes close to what I felt (and what I still feel) when I was told my son had been kil&hellip;<div class="item_footer"><p><small><a href="http://triaspis.com/b2evolution/blog6.php/the-first-days-without-joel">Original post</a> blogged on <a href="http://b2evolution.net/">b2evolution</a>.</small></p></div>

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]]> http://triaspis.com/b2evolution/blog6.php/the-first-days-without-joel#comments http://triaspis.com/b2evolution/blog6.php?tempskin=_rss2&disp=comments&p=35 Hunting http://triaspis.com/b2evolution/blog6.php/hunting Wed, 21 Oct 2009 14:32:34 +0000 Michael Thorn Uncategorized 36@http://triaspis.com/b2evolution/ Trooper Bill took me and Brandon down to Zolfo Springs to hunt feral hogs Friday as planned. The weather has turned her finally. Our first cold front. We traveled Hwy 17 South. We went over the spot where Joel was killed. I saw the little cross a strange&hellip;<div class="item_footer"><p><small><a href="http://triaspis.com/b2evolution/blog6.php/hunting">Original post</a> blogged on <a href="http://b2evolution.net/">b2evolution</a>.</small></p></div>

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]]> http://triaspis.com/b2evolution/blog6.php/hunting#comments http://triaspis.com/b2evolution/blog6.php?tempskin=_rss2&disp=comments&p=36 God Hates Me http://triaspis.com/b2evolution/blog6.php/god-hates-me Wed, 21 Oct 2009 15:39:55 +0000 Michael Thorn Uncategorized 37@http://triaspis.com/b2evolution/ Everything I touch turns to shit. The one thing I was so very proud of and thought I had done an admirable job was raise a beautiful and happy family. But God hates me and he has taken that from me as well. Well, I hate him back. If he is there. He has n&hellip;<div class="item_footer"><p><small><a href="http://triaspis.com/b2evolution/blog6.php/god-hates-me">Original post</a> blogged on <a href="http://b2evolution.net/">b2evolution</a>.</small></p></div>

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]]> http://triaspis.com/b2evolution/blog6.php/god-hates-me#comments http://triaspis.com/b2evolution/blog6.php?tempskin=_rss2&disp=comments&p=37 Dreams of lightbulbs and boiling oil http://triaspis.com/b2evolution/blog6.php/dreams-of-lightbulbs-and-boiling-oil Fri, 23 Oct 2009 09:38:43 +0000 Michael Thorn Uncategorized 38@http://triaspis.com/b2evolution/ I had a strange dream this morning. I dreamed I was boiling oil in a cooker plugged in an outlet inside the freezer. For some reason I was moving the cooker and it splashed hot oil onto my left hand and burned a straight line in it. I pulled the plug so&hellip;<div class="item_footer"><p><small><a href="http://triaspis.com/b2evolution/blog6.php/dreams-of-lightbulbs-and-boiling-oil">Original post</a> blogged on <a href="http://b2evolution.net/">b2evolution</a>.</small></p></div>

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]]> http://triaspis.com/b2evolution/blog6.php/dreams-of-lightbulbs-and-boiling-oil#comments http://triaspis.com/b2evolution/blog6.php?tempskin=_rss2&disp=comments&p=38 Gangs, Drugs and Alcohol, I thought keeping him from the big three would keep him safe. http://triaspis.com/b2evolution/blog6.php/gangs-drugs-and-alcohol-i-thought-keeping-him-from-the-big-three-would-keep-him-safe Wed, 28 Oct 2009 14:43:55 +0000 Michael Thorn Uncategorized 44@http://triaspis.com/b2evolution/ Gangs, Drugs and Alcohol, I thought keeping him from the big three would keep him safe. I was wrong. Joel never touched drugs or alcohol. He didn't consume anything that was bad for him. Things on his list included soft drinks, Mcdonald's, tobacco, alc&hellip;<div class="item_footer"><p><small><a href="http://triaspis.com/b2evolution/blog6.php/gangs-drugs-and-alcohol-i-thought-keeping-him-from-the-big-three-would-keep-him-safe">Original post</a> blogged on <a href="http://b2evolution.net/">b2evolution</a>.</small></p></div>

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]]> http://triaspis.com/b2evolution/blog6.php/gangs-drugs-and-alcohol-i-thought-keeping-him-from-the-big-three-would-keep-him-safe#comments http://triaspis.com/b2evolution/blog6.php?tempskin=_rss2&disp=comments&p=44 We lost, a wonderful young man, fellow forum member ( ReelSkinnyJr ) and my friend. http://triaspis.com/b2evolution/blog6.php/our-friend-dale-wrote-this-about-joel Wed, 28 Oct 2009 15:01:30 +0000 Michael Thorn Uncategorized 47@http://triaspis.com/b2evolution/ A few years ago I was downhearted as to the state of the younger generation. I saw little hope for them. That was before I met Joel (ReelSkinnyJr) he restored my hope.When I met him he was 15 years old. He had hopes and dreams of being a pilot and was ve&hellip;<div class="item_footer"><p><small><a href="http://triaspis.com/b2evolution/blog6.php/our-friend-dale-wrote-this-about-joel">Original post</a> blogged on <a href="http://b2evolution.net/">b2evolution</a>.</small></p></div>

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]]> http://triaspis.com/b2evolution/blog6.php/our-friend-dale-wrote-this-about-joel#comments http://triaspis.com/b2evolution/blog6.php?tempskin=_rss2&disp=comments&p=47 Finally took out the boat. Mixed emotions. http://triaspis.com/b2evolution/blog6.php/finally-took-out-the-boat-mixed-emotions Tue, 03 Nov 2009 19:23:16 +0000 Michael Thorn Uncategorized 48@http://triaspis.com/b2evolution/ The boat has been stuck in our lawn since a week or so before Joel died. I was going to rewire the trailer and had big plans for us over the summer. Joel loved The Mosquito Lagoon. To go there would require night travel and I didn't want to go down I-4 w&hellip;<div class="item_footer"><p><small><a href="http://triaspis.com/b2evolution/blog6.php/finally-took-out-the-boat-mixed-emotions">Original post</a> blogged on <a href="http://b2evolution.net/">b2evolution</a>.</small></p></div>

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]]> http://triaspis.com/b2evolution/blog6.php/finally-took-out-the-boat-mixed-emotions#comments http://triaspis.com/b2evolution/blog6.php?tempskin=_rss2&disp=comments&p=48 Feeling depressed today http://triaspis.com/b2evolution/blog6.php/feeling-depressed-today Thu, 05 Nov 2009 13:52:00 +0000 Michael Thorn Uncategorized 49@http://triaspis.com/b2evolution/ I dropped Brandon off at school this morning and watched him walk away. I realized that next Thursday it will have been six months since I dropped off Joel in the same spot and watched him walk away. It was the last time I saw him alive.<div class="item_footer"><p><small><a href="http://triaspis.com/b2evolution/blog6.php/feeling-depressed-today">Original post</a> blogged on <a href="http://b2evolution.net/">b2evolution</a>.</small></p></div>

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]]> http://triaspis.com/b2evolution/blog6.php/feeling-depressed-today#comments http://triaspis.com/b2evolution/blog6.php?tempskin=_rss2&disp=comments&p=49 182 days = 6 months http://triaspis.com/b2evolution/blog6.php/182-days-6-months Thu, 19 Nov 2009 12:07:27 +0000 Michael Thorn Uncategorized 50@http://triaspis.com/b2evolution/ Friday the 13th of November, how apt. You've been gone six months, 182 days. It's hard to believe it's been so long. Half a year and my heart still aches for you. If only I had known I would loose you, I would have held you one more time. I would have sp&hellip;<div class="item_footer"><p><small><a href="http://triaspis.com/b2evolution/blog6.php/182-days-6-months">Original post</a> blogged on <a href="http://b2evolution.net/">b2evolution</a>.</small></p></div>

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]]> http://triaspis.com/b2evolution/blog6.php/182-days-6-months#comments http://triaspis.com/b2evolution/blog6.php?tempskin=_rss2&disp=comments&p=50 Obsessing Again Today http://triaspis.com/b2evolution/blog6.php/obsessing-again-today Fri, 20 Nov 2009 20:14:15 +0000 Michael Thorn Uncategorized 51@http://triaspis.com/b2evolution/ Friday, again. Obsessing about tires this morning. All too expensive and I'd rather not spend money on rubber. Comparing brand after brand for over an hour and just a waste of time. Then I looked at the clock. Nine Twenty-Seven. My heart sank into the pi&hellip;<div class="item_footer"><p><small><a href="http://triaspis.com/b2evolution/blog6.php/obsessing-again-today">Original post</a> blogged on <a href="http://b2evolution.net/">b2evolution</a>.</small></p></div>

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]]> http://triaspis.com/b2evolution/blog6.php/obsessing-again-today#comments http://triaspis.com/b2evolution/blog6.php?tempskin=_rss2&disp=comments&p=51 The First Warm Days Of '010 http://triaspis.com/b2evolution/blog6.php/the-first-warm-days-of-0110 Fri, 22 Jan 2010 19:59:42 +0000 Michael Thorn Uncategorized 53@http://triaspis.com/b2evolution/ &#8220;The first warm days of &#8216;010,&#8221; The Old Man wrote in his journal. &#8220;I launched my craft in the Little Manatee River. The tide was low but supposed to come in all day. This was important to me as it has been a very long time since I was on the river and I f&hellip;<div class="item_footer"><p><small><a href="http://triaspis.com/b2evolution/blog6.php/the-first-warm-days-of-0110">Original post</a> blogged on <a href="http://b2evolution.net/">b2evolution</a>.</small></p></div>

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]]> http://triaspis.com/b2evolution/blog6.php/the-first-warm-days-of-0110#comments http://triaspis.com/b2evolution/blog6.php?tempskin=_rss2&disp=comments&p=53 Fishing Without Joel, A Poem http://triaspis.com/b2evolution/blog6.php/fishing-without-joel-a-poem Fri, 05 Feb 2010 21:17:29 +0000 Michael Thorn Uncategorized 55@http://triaspis.com/b2evolution/ &#160; &#160; God It has been so long I&#8217;ve forgotten how it feels To touch the water beneath me To hear the splash around me The salt and sun beat down To warms my broken soul And keep my perspective whole And every time I make that cast I pray That yo&hellip;<div class="item_footer"><p><small><a href="http://triaspis.com/b2evolution/blog6.php/fishing-without-joel-a-poem">Original post</a> blogged on <a href="http://b2evolution.net/">b2evolution</a>.</small></p></div>

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]]> http://triaspis.com/b2evolution/blog6.php/fishing-without-joel-a-poem#comments http://triaspis.com/b2evolution/blog6.php?tempskin=_rss2&disp=comments&p=55 The Joel A. Thorn Memorial Fishing Gathering http://triaspis.com/b2evolution/blog6.php/the-joel-a-thorn-memorial-fishing-tournament Tue, 23 Mar 2010 13:59:18 +0000 Michael Thorn Uncategorized 56@http://triaspis.com/b2evolution/ The date is set for May 8th at E. G. Simmons Park in Ruskin, FL. Admission is&#160;by donation. No one will be turned away if you can not make one. This is a family oriented fishing tournament. There will be points awarded and winning prizes. Joel was an avid&hellip;<div class="item_footer"><p><small><a href="http://triaspis.com/b2evolution/blog6.php/the-joel-a-thorn-memorial-fishing-tournament">Original post</a> blogged on <a href="http://b2evolution.net/">b2evolution</a>.</small></p></div>

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]]> http://triaspis.com/b2evolution/blog6.php/the-joel-a-thorn-memorial-fishing-tournament#comments http://triaspis.com/b2evolution/blog6.php?tempskin=_rss2&disp=comments&p=56 Into The River http://triaspis.com/b2evolution/blog6.php/into-the-river Sun, 25 Apr 2010 13:05:48 +0000 Michael Thorn Uncategorized 58@http://triaspis.com/b2evolution/ Into the river. My life seems brighter. As the boat glides into the Little Manatee River, my spirit lifts with the diaphanous mist over Moby Bay. Blackened mackerel are on the palate. And they are back even though it&#8217;s been a very cold-hardened winter. S&hellip;<div class="item_footer"><p><small><a href="http://triaspis.com/b2evolution/blog6.php/into-the-river">Original post</a> blogged on <a href="http://b2evolution.net/">b2evolution</a>.</small></p></div>

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]]> http://triaspis.com/b2evolution/blog6.php/into-the-river#comments http://triaspis.com/b2evolution/blog6.php?tempskin=_rss2&disp=comments&p=58 A Year Without Joel http://triaspis.com/b2evolution/blog6.php/a-year-without-joel Wed, 26 May 2010 20:43:37 +0000 Michael Thorn Uncategorized 59@http://triaspis.com/b2evolution/ A year without Joel&#160;Saturday, May 15, marked a year since Joel died. Although I still feel the two days of the week, Thursday and Friday, make this mark. The date moved by one day to Saturday and will continue to move each year. But Saturday didn&#8217;t f&hellip;<div class="item_footer"><p><small><a href="http://triaspis.com/b2evolution/blog6.php/a-year-without-joel">Original post</a> blogged on <a href="http://b2evolution.net/">b2evolution</a>.</small></p></div>

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]]> http://triaspis.com/b2evolution/blog6.php/a-year-without-joel#comments http://triaspis.com/b2evolution/blog6.php?tempskin=_rss2&disp=comments&p=59 Passing The Cheque..... The End of an Era. http://triaspis.com/b2evolution/blog6.php/passing-the-cheque-the-end-of-an-era Wed, 02 Jun 2010 22:46:35 +0000 Michael Thorn Uncategorized 60@http://triaspis.com/b2evolution/ I visited with Allyson Moskowitz from the Bethany Center late last week and she gave me a tour of their wonderful facility. The Bethany Center provides counseling for children who have lost a loved one. They have several activity areas suited for differe&hellip;<div class="item_footer"><p><small><a href="http://triaspis.com/b2evolution/blog6.php/passing-the-cheque-the-end-of-an-era">Original post</a> blogged on <a href="http://b2evolution.net/">b2evolution</a>.</small></p></div>

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]]> http://triaspis.com/b2evolution/blog6.php/passing-the-cheque-the-end-of-an-era#comments http://triaspis.com/b2evolution/blog6.php?tempskin=_rss2&disp=comments&p=60 Fishing Without Joel (revised) http://triaspis.com/b2evolution/blog6.php/fishing-without-joel-revised Wed, 16 Jun 2010 16:43:40 +0000 Michael Thorn Uncategorized 61@http://triaspis.com/b2evolution/ GodIt's been so long nowI've forgotten just how it feelsTo touch the waterBeneath meTo feel the splash around me The salt and sun beat downTo warm my broken soulAnd keep my perspective wholeBut still my heart breaks me And every time I make that cas&hellip;<div class="item_footer"><p><small><a href="http://triaspis.com/b2evolution/blog6.php/fishing-without-joel-revised">Original post</a> blogged on <a href="http://b2evolution.net/">b2evolution</a>.</small></p></div>

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]]> http://triaspis.com/b2evolution/blog6.php/fishing-without-joel-revised#comments http://triaspis.com/b2evolution/blog6.php?tempskin=_rss2&disp=comments&p=61 It's Over http://triaspis.com/b2evolution/blog6.php/it-s-over Wed, 01 Dec 2010 19:03:07 +0000 Michael Thorn Uncategorized 62@http://triaspis.com/b2evolution/ It&#8217;s Over&#160;Into the edge of the world without you, I watched as the school bus pulled away. The familiar sting as I fight back the tears so those near wouldn&#8217;t know. I&#8217;m thinking of you. This cool morning air and hillsides silver with dew. Heart&#8217;s Eas&hellip;<div class="item_footer"><p><small><a href="http://triaspis.com/b2evolution/blog6.php/it-s-over">Original post</a> blogged on <a href="http://b2evolution.net/">b2evolution</a>.</small></p></div>

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]]> http://triaspis.com/b2evolution/blog6.php/it-s-over#comments http://triaspis.com/b2evolution/blog6.php?tempskin=_rss2&disp=comments&p=62 We lost our beloved Aussie Saturday http://triaspis.com/b2evolution/blog6.php/we-lost-our-beloved-aussie-saturday Mon, 24 Jan 2011 17:34:28 +0000 Michael Thorn Uncategorized 63@http://triaspis.com/b2evolution/ Aussie was a wonderful companion to us for nearly nine-and-a-half years. She loved to ride in the boat but wasn't very good for fishing because all she wanted was to have fun. So I picked my days, just like I did when my boys were young, knowing I wouldn&hellip;<div class="item_footer"><p><small><a href="http://triaspis.com/b2evolution/blog6.php/we-lost-our-beloved-aussie-saturday">Original post</a> blogged on <a href="http://b2evolution.net/">b2evolution</a>.</small></p></div>

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]]> http://triaspis.com/b2evolution/blog6.php/we-lost-our-beloved-aussie-saturday#comments http://triaspis.com/b2evolution/blog6.php?tempskin=_rss2&disp=comments&p=63 What Is This Strange Feeling? http://triaspis.com/b2evolution/blog6.php/what-is-this-strange-feeling Fri, 25 Feb 2011 16:56:57 +0000 Michael Thorn Uncategorized 66@http://triaspis.com/b2evolution/ I bought a guitar on e-bay about a month ago. It was supposed to be a Zion Radicaster. It turned out the only thing that really was Zion was the neck. The body was a strat copy made of cheap plywood. The tremolo was cheap and the sustain block was made o&hellip;<div class="item_footer"><p><small><a href="http://triaspis.com/b2evolution/blog6.php/what-is-this-strange-feeling">Original post</a> blogged on <a href="http://b2evolution.net/">b2evolution</a>.</small></p></div>

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]]> http://triaspis.com/b2evolution/blog6.php/what-is-this-strange-feeling#comments http://triaspis.com/b2evolution/blog6.php?tempskin=_rss2&disp=comments&p=66 2 years http://triaspis.com/b2evolution/blog6.php/2-years Sat, 14 May 2011 12:10:50 +0000 Michael Thorn Uncategorized 64@http://triaspis.com/b2evolution/ This morning when I awoke I could see the light entering the sky through the cracks in the blind behind the head of our bed. I could tell by the amount of light mixing with darkness that it was about the same time I dropped Joel off at school; the last t&hellip;<div class="item_footer"><p><small><a href="http://triaspis.com/b2evolution/blog6.php/2-years">Original post</a> blogged on <a href="http://b2evolution.net/">b2evolution</a>.</small></p></div>

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]]> http://triaspis.com/b2evolution/blog6.php/2-years#comments http://triaspis.com/b2evolution/blog6.php?tempskin=_rss2&disp=comments&p=64 This Is What My Brain Says To Me All Day Every Day http://triaspis.com/b2evolution/blog6.php/this-is-what-my-brain-says-to-me-all-day-every-day Wed, 09 Nov 2011 15:39:28 +0000 Michael Thorn Uncategorized 65@http://triaspis.com/b2evolution/ This is what spins in my head every waking moment of every day and every night. It doesn't matter what I'm doing or not doing. I'll write it exactly as it comes to me: Where is my Joel?Why did you leave?Why didn't you turn around?Where are you?Why die&hellip;<div class="item_footer"><p><small><a href="http://triaspis.com/b2evolution/blog6.php/this-is-what-my-brain-says-to-me-all-day-every-day">Original post</a> blogged on <a href="http://b2evolution.net/">b2evolution</a>.</small></p></div>

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]]> http://triaspis.com/b2evolution/blog6.php/this-is-what-my-brain-says-to-me-all-day-every-day#comments http://triaspis.com/b2evolution/blog6.php?tempskin=_rss2&disp=comments&p=65 How We Spent Our Son's 21st Birthday http://triaspis.com/b2evolution/blog6.php/our-son-s-21st-birthday Fri, 03 Feb 2012 14:28:31 +0000 Michael Thorn Uncategorized 67@http://triaspis.com/b2evolution/ Saying Goodbye - Setting Him Free.Last Sunday was my son's birthday. He would have been 21. His name is Joel A. Thorn. We spent many hours on our boat, the "Reel Skinny", fishing the South Shore and other areas in and around Tampabay. We made many friend&hellip;<div class="item_footer"><p><small><a href="http://triaspis.com/b2evolution/blog6.php/our-son-s-21st-birthday">Original post</a> blogged on <a href="http://b2evolution.net/">b2evolution</a>.</small></p></div>

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